Being an adult sucks



Lately, I've been wondering what I want to do with my life.  What I thought I wanted to do is just not something I want to do or maybe it is? I do not know, and it is really frustrating.  I cannot tell you how many nights and days have been spent or are being spent thinking about the future.  Not only because I want to figure out what I want to do with me life but it is honestly becoming a necessity. We have lots of bills(medical bills at that) to pay and having a one income home is almost to a point where it is not feasible.

I remember how much I wanted to be an adult when I was a kid. I thought it would be "cool". What was I thinking? apparently I thought it would be easy, and I could do whatever I want, whenever I want. But alas I am an adult and I need to make a decision or at least find something to do and see if I like it and I better do it soon or I'll go crazy thinking about all the possibilities. In 2013, the Washington Post wrote about how only 27% of people were currently employed at jobs that closely matched their degrees. wait SAY WHAT? Not 27% people are currently employed at jobs that use their degrees. Nope not that. They said 27% were employed at jobs that CLOSELY matched their degrees. This at least makes me think that I am not alone when I question the degree I chose. I shall keep y'all updated on what decision I make, if I make one. It has been harder than I thought it would be. 

XoXo,
Ana 

Woman Crush Wednesday: Mindy Kaling


So this week I thought I'd do Woman Crush Wednesday, and my WCW is (drum roll) Mindy Kaling!  I absolutely love her and not in a sexual way but in a she's so awesome! She is a great role model for women especially if they are insecure about themselves. Her book "Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? (And Other Concerns)" is a MUST read... it's funny and quirky and you won't be able to put the book down! Not only is she hilarious but she's really smart, confident, and doesn't give a damn what others think. At least she doesn't show it if it does! She's absolutely inspirational! 
So here are some of my favorite quotes by Mindy:
















XoXo, 
Ana 

Our experience with an allergic reaction and the emergency room



PARENTS are the worst. Who's heard that statement before? (raise your hands) Well I hear it all the time, and the truth is we sometimes can be. But I say this with all the honesty in the world. We are just trying to make sure our children are being taken care of and getting the best care possible. Sure that comes off a little ambiguous but it's the truth, and that is why sometimes we come off a little strong. This could be why a week ago today when I had the scare of my life I felt like it could have gone a little better.

We put my daughter to bed around 8:30-9 PM and then around 12:30AM she woke up crying. So she cries right? WRONG. It was a totally different cry from her normal come pick me up cry. So I went and got her and I noticed she was itchy, REALLY itchy. So I turned on my nightstand lamp and I about had a heart attack. My daughters ears were beginning to swell and her body was starting to break out in hives, I turned to my husband and said hey wake up Aria is having an allergic reaction and then I kept looking at our daughter and I began to panic, her ears were getting bigger and it was starting to travel to her face. I then went KYLE WE HAVE TO GO TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM. He immediately gets up and we began running around like chickens with their heads cutoff and gathered up her favorite I cannot live without bunny and blanket and we put on some pants and got her in her carseat and off we went to the ER. When we got to the ER I ran out of the car in a panic and did not really know where to go since there were two entrances to the ER, and well I was freaking out and did not stop to read that one was for the ambulance and the other for walk-in patients. I run up to an ambulance and the guy cracked the window open. (like really what am I going to do to you, I have a 1 year old in my arms) But I probably looked crazy and frantic so I don't blame him. Me: My daughter is having an allergic reaction.  Ambulance guy: the entrance is that way (and he points) and so I run to the other door and run in and go to the front desk and go MY DAUGHTER IS HAVING AN ALLERGIC REACTION.  So they take us into a room and they are all calm while my heartbeat is going a thousand miles a minute! They tell me to take her onsie off and put her on a scale to weigh her(which was inaccurate since it said she weighed 11 lbs and she's actually 25 lbs), and me as a mom am thinking WHAT ARE YOU DOING, can you please just look at her she's still swelling up. At this point her eyes are almost swollen shut. Then he calmly and very slowly takes her temperature (through her bum) which was traumatic to say the least, to her as well as me, then he takes her sock off and puts the oxygen reading/blood pressure(I assume) thing on her foot and puts her sock back on. Then he starts asking us questions, like how long has she been like this, when is her birthday, what did she eat, has this happened before, is she allergic to anything, and so on. At this point I was about to SCREAM because I only knew she was having an allergic reaction, I'm no healthcare professional and I was freaking out because what if this keeps getting worse. Then he hooks up the thing on her toe to the machine and goes her oxygen levels are good, and her temperature is a little down, let me get her a blanket. UM HELLO my daughter is swollen up and we're talking about her temperature.  Then they send us out to the waiting room to wait. STILL NO MEDICINE OR ANYTHING. We wait for about 10-15 minutes and some girl calls us up and starts asking about our medical insurance, and who's her pediatrician, etc. Another 5 minutes pass and FINALLY they take us into another room where a nurse brings Benadryl and a steroid for her. We then wait for like 15-20 minutes then a PA (physician assistant) comes in and looks at her and goes we will wait a little longer for the medicine to work. We wait yet again, no explanation, no anything. She comes in again after a while (at that point I stop taking time because what is the point) and she goes oh it looks like her swelling is going down some, lets wait a little longer. So we wait and by that point my one year old(starting to feel a little better) who hates being still is freaking out because she wants to walk and is tired. The PA comes back in and goes here are her discharge papers, here is a prescription for a steroid, and give her Benadryl every 4-6 hours and follow up with your pediatrician. If the nurse and PA would have just done a few things differently I would have felt better about the ER. As a first time parent who was literally having a meltdown because our baby girl, the most precious person in our life was going through this horrific thing if:

1. Said it's going to be okay mom and dad, we are going to help your baby girl.
2. We could have seen a Doctor
3. More updates on what is happening, there was absolutely no communication between us and the PA or nurse.

Let me tell you as a parent who knows nothing of what is happening and why it's happening besides maybe this happened because she ate a cashew lara bar, it's unsettling to say the least. It was not until we got to the pediatrician that we got sent up to get blood drawn for a food and allergy test. Which by the way takes a WHOLE week for a food and allergy test to come back, so all week we've been tiptoeing through our kitchen and are scared to even look at any food that may give her an allergic reaction once more.  Our pediatrician also prescribed an epi pen and said oh this is what happens in your body when you have a reaction, it's good that her oxygen levels are normal, and he explained other things such as tree nut allergies and peanut allergies.  So here I am still waiting for results on what happened, and hopefully we can get an answer as to what caused the allergic reaction. I have got to say it was the scariest moment of our life and I would like to never experience it again.

Have you had any experience with you or your kids having an allergic reaction? Did you have any trouble when you went to the ER or your doctor?

Surviving Motherhood: Sleep training edition


I am a first time mom and with that comes a lot of firsts and lets face it, times when we have NO IDEA what we are doing. I took this thing called "sleep training" with a grain of salt. Not that I was fully skeptical about it, but I thought OHHHH I won't need to do that.  So fast forward to the present and welllll Aria is not sleeping through the night. What do I mean by she isn't sleeping through the night, she is basically waking up more than 2 times a night.  Let us go through her sleeping the past 10 months.  At 2 months she was sleeping about 6 hours during the night (WOOOHOOO right?) and she slept that way until about 6 months. This is when we moved to San Antonio and into our new house.  First of all, not only did she not sleep through the night but she decided I don't want to sleep in my pack and play OR my crib. Ummmm HELLO that's where she's been sleeping since she was born, so we took a step back and got through it and finally had her sleeping again. She was sleeping 10-12 hours at this point. Kyle and I were in HEAVEN to say the least, then came teething.  So teething started and she started waking up at all hours of the night, and this lasted until her teeth broke through (bottom two to be exact). So they broke through and you would think that she would just go back to sleeping again, welllll you thought(as did we) wrong. Aria then started waking up 1-2 times a night, which wasn't THAT big of deal to me because she would wake up and then I'd give her a bottle or put her back to sleep.  Then came her first ear infection, she was running really high fevers and we made the BIGGEST mistake of all and let her sleep with us and now she wants to sleep with us.  So we went to the Dr. and we got antibiotics, which she is allergic to and she broke out in a rash.  Well now her rash is gone and she is not having it going back to her crib. Like you know crying at the top of lungs not having it.  We are literally at our wits end, we don't know what to do.  We have tried it all well at least I thought we had, and we even gave in and tried the cry it out method that the pediatrician suggested (which I do not like and by the way does not work with Aria) This is when I start thinking I'm the worst mom ever, then I google sleep training without cry it out method and there is a lot of information and it gives me hope.  Then I YouTubed sleep training a 10 month old and lo and behold I'm not the only one in the battlefield called sleep training.  You guys do not know how great it feels to know I'm not the only one out there that has a 10 month old(plus) that isn't sleeping through the night.  I also don't mean it as though I am the only one with this problem in a conceited way, but sometimes when you are where we are, well you feel realllllllly ALONE.  Although I'm not happy that we are in this boat, at least I'm not the only one sailing into hopefully a better nights sleep!!!!!
XoXo,
Ana

are there any advice you used with your baby? or have heard of any advice? seriously I'm ALL ears!!!!

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Motivational Monday


Good Morning lovelies!!! 


I am again on path of getting fit and healthy. Sometimes I get discouraged because I'm not seeing the results that I want to see but I have to remind myself that it takes time and that I need to find the patience it takes to trek on the fitness journey. I feel like it's a no ending cycle but alas I'm okay with that since I want to be healthy for my daughter and husband.  I have a long road ahead of me but one that I welcome!!! Although it's really hard to stay motivated, lets start off today with a little motivation:












And most of all

XoXo,
Ana =)